episode 8 : refreshing!

goshh..its been a while..
this blog is still under-construction..havent got a full time to spend on it..
been busy with my life lately! pluss examssss...heh..
anyway..gotta refresh this shitty blog..coz we sure dont wanna look the same as everybody else..dont we??
hiahahahha..
til then..catch ya later..
mwahx3..

love,
Z.

episode 7 : karate!

wooohooooo!!!!!!!!!!
im definitely going to UUM for masum. ( majlis sukan universiti malaysia) =D
cant believe it either.im going under karate club..
izzati n karate???
hahhaa...cant believe it..but as adidas said it : impossible is nothing..
n i remember sir nike said,"just do it!"
hahahha..

so im going on 13th may until 19th..
damn..it also means no 1weeek holiday for me..sad =(
right after that,im straight in for the intersession..
god! life gonna be damn hectic..atleast i got an xcuse to escape from the stupid perfact camp..
hehehhe...camping is not really my thing..though they said its fun..

on other note,
i miss A so much...
why A is doing this to me..
("-)


love,
Z
xoxo...

episode 7 : men..~

havent talk to him for a quite a long time. Ever since that day,he dissappear from my life..
i tried to contact him..no use.
he completely erase me from his life. but why? why must he do that? what happen to all of his promises? just a bunch of sweet words structured to make me feel good? foolish me.
or am i being too selfish? think bout me and how i feel all the way long while he's been sacrifising everything?
im sorry if im being a monster upon you.

all of a sudden..he called!
but there's silence..
talk to me,A!! goshh..
i dunno what's in your mind..whatever it is..im sorry..

next..
guilty possessed me when im in contact with D.
but im only doing it as a friend..
somehow i love the guilty pleasure..
haha..cant blame me for that. D is kinda interesting..plus nothing is wrong with enlarging the network..aint it?
;p

ouhh..just now..i bumped into J's page..
gotta give credit to him for having a new gf..
cepat jer ann..haha..
what happen to that poor lil I..hahha..
no wonder people saw her crying the other day..some said its about J..
maybe my friends are right...he could be a so called playboy.
but i see him differently..not a player..but in desperate!
desperate for love..
ouh well...hope your happy J.

then..it's N.
im afraid that he's having a high expectation from me. im not gonna be your rebound girl..
im here as your friend..plus if i do wanna go further in it..he's just too far away..anyway,it wouldnt be fun anymore..hahah..gotta enjoy the youth!

things with I..as usual..sometimes he's there..sometimes he's not..
another crush that will never work..
yeah..he called sometimes..but then thats it..heh..

another one is E..
we had lunch yesterday..
nice of him to treat me for a lunch..and rushed here after his video shooting..
spent the day with him..he's nice i can say..
but then, there's something bout him that sometimes make me feel like i cant really rely on him..
as people said, nobody is perfect..accept him the way he is..as you want others to accept the way you are..

okay..okay..
sometimes i do feel like i want him..sometimes i dont..
hehhe..
but 1 thing for sure..
i fuckingly miss A!

till then..later..
Z..

episode 6 : mixed up!

things are getting crazier..!!!
with testss..assignmentsss..presentations..
harghhh....benci laa!

then to add up the craziness..my karate training..
ever since im in it..i keep on getting blisterss n aches..
heh...well,what keeps me going on is thinking bout the life-experience n being optimistic bout it..
so karate la saye berhari-hari..
hahhaha..

bout my love life..
well i talked to B bout my crush..
he said i should just forget bout my 'C' crush..
coz he didnt treat me rite..
somehow he acted lowly..
its kinda sad..
how can a girl just forget bout her crush just like that.,..

just now,i chatted with him..
he told me im pretty..in a very casual and simple way..
yippee i suppose??
can feel the tingle or butterfly in the tummy..
but i remembered what B told me..
why i cant have the man that i like..
im bored with accepting people into my life..
why cant i pick the one that i actually have a crush on our 1st meet up?
why cant i be with the one that i actually like in the 1st place?

i like badboy with actual brains..
i dont need some stupid badboy..which i can just pick up from any club and take home..
goshhh...

and things with E..
i dont know how to say this..
but i cant really see any future with him..
right now..im just going with the flow..
just gonna see how far things will be..
he's not really my type.
i cant rely on him that much..i need a man that can be with me when i need him the most..
i dont mean that i cant compremise..
but..he's just not that man yet..
yeah,.everyone is busy with study..im busy too..
payah la mamat nih senang cite...

in whole..i need a man who know how to have the fun...witty..got brains..and most important can be by my side when i need him..and know how to put me at an ease..
heh..as the cliche saying goes..
"you dont always get what you want & you'll end up with someone that you hate"
damn..y cant people find something nice to say to motivate people??
maybe coz you live in a real world..n we just have to be realistic??
bullshit!!

till then,catch ya later..
Z..
mwahxx

episode 5 : recap!

goshh..! been busy lately..didnt have much time to update.
but..as always..i have sooo much to tell..gotta share with the world baby!..

1st of all..back to february..
i had THE BEST VALENTINE ever!!.. i repeat..THE BEST VALENTINE!!!
this aint like any other ordinary val's day..where couple go out have dinner..bla bla bla craps!!
my vday was spent with my bestie,A..and S and M..
we went to euphoria..ok fine..maybe its not so valentine since i spent the day with my friends BUT WHO CARES!! its my day...still..hahhaha..
ok back to euphoria...we had the greatest night..ok
we went in..danced like the world is ours..dont give a damn about a thing..
then M spotted our so-called aftas legend..mag..
i cant believe my eyes..i thought he's kind of like nerdy or at least an angel type...u know what i mean..
but seeing him there..
mann...its something okk..
well..to avoid the awkwardness,i asked him 2 dance along with us..
well,grabbing the chance to hit the dancefloor with an ex-aftas president..hahha
he's quite good to admit..so i danced with him thru out the night..
he's kinda notty ok..but i like bad boy! =D
to be honest i do have a crush on him..ok fine..i do ok..!
so what..
he's just soo my type of a guy..except the part that he's kinda short..but lucky enough not shorter than me! yeayy..

to sum up...i hav a crush on him..and i cant keep my mind off that nite and all the things happened between me and him..
but shit..he doesnt wanna make any move..

gtg!
talk later..
ciao!
mwahxx