episode 7 : Shopping & self bliss

Splendour yesterday!!! I went out with 'A' spending the whole day together..having breakfast at dome really gave us the energy..at 1st, we went shopping and spent over rm700 at topshop&topman. aint that heaven?? then 'A' got a haircut at klcc..after all that 'A' said, "u..i lapa laa.." haahha..shopping really made us hungry..then i said," oraite..lets hit pavi..!!" Wandering around looking for a place..then we just decided to hit carl's jr...too lazy too think of a better place..-haihh-
The act of burning holes in the pocket doesnt stop there...refreshing our body aroma came into the mind..looking for a new scent and splurged in parkson. 'A' got a fragrance from hugo and i got the new escada : incredible me!!! yeah..the new incredible izzati..!!!
Going back to klcc..we pampered ourselves at The nail parlour..getting manicure including pedicure is what we did..and my nails got a french twist on it..im just soo happy :D
Lastly i got myself a new pair of shoe..a girl just cant live without a range of shoess..aint we??? -rolled eyes-
then 'A' wanted to have a drink at chilli's before we get back..







ouhh ouh ouh...and before i end this happy episode...
i saw H at pavi.. : /
he's with this new girl..is not that im jealous or whatever u call it..im happy that he finally moved on after our 1year plus together...that girl is sweet and innocent i can say from her dressing..funny when i looked at her,reminds me of his gf before me..we bumped into each other..i said 'hye H'..the only thing he did just raised lil bit of his eyebrows and gave a little gesture....and i thought 'thats it???'
Thats it??? is that all you can do?? dissapointment possessed my happy feelings..im not hoping he would still have feelings for me..but at least..tegur me macam kawan..x boleh ke??
let bygone be bygones..i know he hard times at the end of our relationship...but c'mon mann.. -sigh-


well i guess..nothing will always be beautiful in this world..
sentiasa akan ada bintik2 hitam di atas kanvas putih hidup ini..
-wink- (",)

love,
me..
xoxo

episode 6 : i deserve better - part II

here is just some sayings that i forgot to include earlier...maybe this thing happens to u too..and its just some of my thought bout it..


I just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy
you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything
i heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again
the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
even though you hurt me
I still gonna miss you
don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
although i will curse you i'll still miss you

episode 5 : i deserve better.

i care bout what other people feels so much until i forgot bout mine..
that night..i just cant do that to myself anymore..i realized,its me that i should care about..i deserve to be treated better than this..so i made a big step.i told him everything..i had enough with it..i wont let myself be fooled again..love aint just about being with the person that we love..its more than that,including letting that person off by our side..
now we r total folks.. i feel empty..but wont let the emptyness stop me from having tonnes of fun!! I'm gonna enjoy every bits of my life with my own way,my own style..nothing can stop me now..actually i feel much lighter..no burden,no problems anymore to jam my own brain..hahha..
I am totally gonna face a new chapter of me with a new fresh start...im moving on..there's so much in life that need to be explore and there's not much time left...

that's it 4 now..

love,
me!!!!
xoxo

episode 4 : heartless

dont know whether im influenced by the peers or its truly me. but tonight by looking at 'it'..tear my heart to pieces. he projects a pure confusion to me..loves me and letting me go...loves me and doesnt want to torture me..loves me and break my heart??? well thank you very much darling..im so tortured right now and my heart crushed! i hate u as much as i love u..i hate you when you said those beautiful words which probably means nothing to you but give a thousands meanings to me while its just another false hope of yours..memories when i was with you surrounded my everyday life..with those memories,i open my eyes every morning with a hope that maybe there's some sense got into your brain and you'll be with me..but still it doesnt..
because of you,i have no interested in other guys out there who actually can treat me better than what you did..you turn me into a heartless bitch..yes,i may have had hurt you..but what you did to me now,its worse..
you want me..but you dont want to walk beside me..if so,just stop giving me this false hopess!! this heart cant take it anymore..just say that 'hard word'..it will hurt me,but just in a short period..i rather its like that than hurting me all the way long like this..
just save me before its getting harder to mend all the broken pieces of my heart back together..

love and hate..there's only a fine thin line that separates them..
i dont wanna stand on the line forever..show me which side to step on..
i dont wanna be a heartless bitch..show me what i wanna see..


love,
me..

xoxo

episode 3 : the 2nd meet up

1st : months before spm..
2nd : yesterday.. =D

see how long it had been?cant believe it either..
but the meet up was fun!..'Metro' -not a real name- is somehow fun..haha..
we went to aquaria! neva been there before and im really curious to know what's inside there..well before!
sounds like a child wanting to go to a funfair..
but i dont give a damn!..hahha
going with Metro is actually comfy..and not dull..
i feel safe with Metro. => isnt it a good thing?
at 1st,he did pretend to be all macho guy..but it didnt last long..
wahaaha..i succeed to bring out the real him..

our 1st embarrassing moments was going into the gift shop to get the entry tickets!!!!
hahaha..how stupid was that..but its an xperience and i call it cute. =D
inside there..i met a new boyfie...hahha..
his name is NAPOLEAN..
haha..its a fish..with a jambul (sort of) at his head..n a luscious lips!! how can i resist that!!
hahah..i was so close to take a pic wit him..but he ran away..
damn u NAPOLEAN! =p

nway..here are some of pics i took overthere :





i really love the part where i can hold the starfishh..woohoo..!

sweet moment i had wit Metro,where he bought this lil aquaria phone strap..
its really cute..n sweet..
my phone really could use some of that lil bling..! =D


i hurt my feet due 2 my high heels..so i walked around the gift shop shoeless!!!
ahaha..i dun care wat others might think..i care bout my feet..! even Metro doesnt mind..
so why should i?? =D

oraity,c ya on next episode!

love,
me!
xoxo

episode 2 : not ready?? whatev..

i just dont get man sometimes u noe.. they said women are complicated..men are worse!!!
im waiting for this guy to be ready to commit in a relationship..
but he just cant set up his mind..
he said he needs time..
ok fine..go ahead dude..!!!
take the whole time in this world..

so im in a complicated situation rite now..well sort of..
i dont normally do this..waiting for a guy...
so he should consider himself lucky!
-sigh-

ouh well..im not gonna be like a stupid girl..waiting like an idiot..
i just go with the flow..if he's gonna be with me..then he'll be..
if not..i just have to accept it..
im not gonna push him to be with me..
im not pushy..if he loves me..he should know what to do..
rite guys?

to add up the spice..
i went to kl cntral to meet up with my bestie,anissa..
guess who i saw??
that bitchy kampung girl..from my college..
dont know what she's doing there..walking here and there alone..
soo pathetic!
know i called her kampung??
bcause she doesnt want to admit that she's from kelantan..
like what's wrong with living in kelantan???
i dont mean to criticised kelantanese..but c'mon girl..get real..
n she's stupid..like she said lightning instead of lighting..
can u imagine that??

whatev girl..

hope tomorrow gonna be a better day!

love,
me!
xoxo

episode 1: histories.

im just gonna write lil bit of what had happened to me ever since i got into college. aite?

ok here we go..

im in uitm shah alam now.doing dip in fast track accounting.meaning im gonna finished my dip within 2years instead of 3years..doing this course isnt easy guys..my subs are all cramped in.huhu.
to add up the hardness, every semester,my CGPA have to be above 3.0 n above..otherwise they'll kick my ass out from fast track programme..n i have to do the normal prog,which means completing my dip in 3years..
sucks eyy..~

living among the accounting students are like crazyyy..!!!
some of the acc nerdies, just wont open up their mind and they prefer to live the orthodox way..
i just dont get it..they still think like a high school kids..-sigh-
whatev to those nerdies..just dont mess around wit my life..
i do my thing..u go do ur thing..oraite!

in early august, i met a mass comm hunk! he's very open minded and understanding yet lovable!
so we be friends then upgraded the relationship..hahha
n now we're dating..hehe =D

then it was my bday on 16th nov..i celebrated wit dearie friends..
we were driving..n they sang 4 me on road!
the cars were side-by-side..n they just yelled it out loud..
i love them so much..!!!!!
THOUSANDS KISSESS FOR MY DEARIE FRIENDS..!
then we went for a karaoke session..
n painted the town red for that nite!

n now i just finished my finals..waiting for the results really creeps me out..
if i got kick out..its like menconteng arang ke muke sendiri..
hahaha...

lastly,on 19th nov..
i damaged my mum's car..
huhuh..
i scratched the rim badly n the front bumper..
huhu..
in return,i got lectured by her FOR AN HOUR!
but i love my mum! she did that not because of the car..but cause of my safety n my own good.
n we're good rite now..
soorry mum!! n i love u!
hehe..

that's pretty much bout it..

love,
me!
xoxo..

welcome me!

hye people..
i created this account long ago..just doesnt have time to spend here updating it and maintaining it.
there's been tons of sweets n shits incidents happened in my book of life..
n i learned a lot from it..
maybe somehow by blogging it,others could gain something..huhu
ouh what the hell..just have fun reading it!

love,
me!
xoxo..