episode 6 : mixed up!

things are getting crazier..!!!
with testss..assignmentsss..presentations..
harghhh....benci laa!

then to add up the craziness..my karate training..
ever since im in it..i keep on getting blisterss n aches..
heh...well,what keeps me going on is thinking bout the life-experience n being optimistic bout it..
so karate la saye berhari-hari..
hahhaha..

bout my love life..
well i talked to B bout my crush..
he said i should just forget bout my 'C' crush..
coz he didnt treat me rite..
somehow he acted lowly..
its kinda sad..
how can a girl just forget bout her crush just like that.,..

just now,i chatted with him..
he told me im pretty..in a very casual and simple way..
yippee i suppose??
can feel the tingle or butterfly in the tummy..
but i remembered what B told me..
why i cant have the man that i like..
im bored with accepting people into my life..
why cant i pick the one that i actually have a crush on our 1st meet up?
why cant i be with the one that i actually like in the 1st place?

i like badboy with actual brains..
i dont need some stupid badboy..which i can just pick up from any club and take home..
goshhh...

and things with E..
i dont know how to say this..
but i cant really see any future with him..
right now..im just going with the flow..
just gonna see how far things will be..
he's not really my type.
i cant rely on him that much..i need a man that can be with me when i need him the most..
i dont mean that i cant compremise..
but..he's just not that man yet..
yeah,.everyone is busy with study..im busy too..
payah la mamat nih senang cite...

in whole..i need a man who know how to have the fun...witty..got brains..and most important can be by my side when i need him..and know how to put me at an ease..
heh..as the cliche saying goes..
"you dont always get what you want & you'll end up with someone that you hate"
damn..y cant people find something nice to say to motivate people??
maybe coz you live in a real world..n we just have to be realistic??
bullshit!!

till then,catch ya later..
Z..
mwahxx