here is just some sayings that i forgot to include earlier...maybe this thing happens to u too..and its just some of my thought bout it..
I just cant understand the hearts of menthey tell you they want you and then they leave youthis is the first time, you're specialI believed those words and I was so happyyou should have told me you didn't like me any morebut I couldn't see that and you just rushed mealthough I will curse you I'll still miss yousince I am a girl, to whom love is everythingi heard that if you give up things too easilyto a man, he will get bored with youi don't think this is wronga girl says that she will never be fooled againbut she will fall in love againthe painit's not enough to describe how i feelwe were so happy togetherbut I know nowI've been blindyou told me that you'd never let me downwhenever I needed you you'd always be hereI can forgive but I cant forgeteven though you hurt meI still gonna miss youdon't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for loveand her caring instincti didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hardalthough i will curse you i'll still miss you
i care bout what other people feels so much until i forgot bout mine..
that night..i just cant do that to myself anymore..i realized,its me that i should care about..i deserve to be treated better than this..so i made a big step.i told him everything..i had enough with it..i wont let myself be fooled again..love aint just about being with the person that we love..its more than that,including letting that person off by our side..
now we r total folks.. i feel empty..but wont let the emptyness stop me from having tonnes of fun!! I'm gonna enjoy every bits of my life with my own way,my own style..nothing can stop me now..actually i feel much lighter..no burden,no problems anymore to jam my own brain..hahha..
I am totally gonna face a new chapter of me with a new fresh start...im moving on..there's so much in life that need to be explore and there's not much time left...
that's it 4 now..
love,
me!!!!
xoxo
dont know whether im influenced by the peers or its truly me. but tonight by looking at 'it'..tear my heart to pieces. he projects a pure confusion to me..loves me and letting me go...loves me and doesnt want to torture me..loves me and break my heart??? well thank you very much darling..im so tortured right now and my heart crushed! i hate u as much as i love u..i hate you when you said those beautiful words which probably means nothing to you but give a thousands meanings to me while its just another false hope of yours..memories when i was with you surrounded my everyday life..with those memories,i open my eyes every morning with a hope that maybe there's some sense got into your brain and you'll be with me..but still it doesnt..
because of you,i have no interested in other guys out there who actually can treat me better than what you did..you turn me into a heartless bitch..yes,i may have had hurt you..but what you did to me now,its worse..
you want me..but you dont want to walk beside me..if so,just stop giving me this false hopess!! this heart cant take it anymore..just say that 'hard word'..it will hurt me,but just in a short period..i rather its like that than hurting me all the way long like this..
just save me before its getting harder to mend all the broken pieces of my heart back together..
love and hate..there's only a fine thin line that separates them..
i dont wanna stand on the line forever..show me which side to step on..
i dont wanna be a heartless bitch..show me what i wanna see..
love,
me..
xoxo